Lies~

Hmm...yea..i'm angry...so wat?...all this while i thought...altho i noe she loves sean but when we're together....its all lies...shes deceiving those times. its all god dam fucking lies. i'm just a dick rebound asshole mutha fuck. i ask her before...beore we got together...if shes talking me a rebound she say no. Fine i believe her. Now..har har...different story d. and its part of my fault?...hahah...wooohooo..yea...sorry for telling Liessss to her....disapppointing her....WHILE we were together which i thoghut was real. but its not huh. hahah...fuck this lah...yea altho at the same time i'm happy dat she finally noes wat she wan. haih....she thought i backstabed her?..hhahaa...screw it lah....i nvr even tell wat happen to my closest frens. only people i told is...ermm...wai xiang...cheryl i think-.-...and sean?...wait did i tell sean-.-...shit cant remember....even jia wei weiyang also i nvr tell them...even ian...cuz i dun wan my really really close frens to say anything bad about her...cuz it mgiht hurt me..or maybe cause a fight...between us...and she thinks i backstab her....haiyah..screw it...watever she thinks non of my businesss...i cant love her anymore....but i dun hate her at the same time now...she was jsut confused..that all this stuff happenned....from the start my frens have been saying stuff about her...but i nvr listen...cuz i was so in love wif her...dat watever she do is always right. but....i'm just taking for granted?...is dat the word...maybe its a lil bit too harsh...a rebound. guess all this long....wat we had....was all lies...an illusion....guess i've also been lieing to myself...cant love her anymore...but it doesnt matter to her huh...if i lvoe or dont love....its not like i can bring her back to my life anymore...well yea...its my fault all along also i guess....if i didnt fall in love wif her...this wouldnt happen...if i didnt confront her telling her dat i love her...this wouldnt happen....she and sean would be happily together.sigh...

oh last nite went out wif iann and gang...went cyber-.- play until 2.00 this morning..haha...and now is 12.50...in the afternoon...:]....shit dog...jia wei is getting good in DoW...rawrr..i suc-.-...