Past

I'm still living in the past. Still thinking i could change the imposibble. Still thinking that something would happen between us. Still thinking that i could get her back. Guess i was wrong. She totaly treats me as a fren Now. Worst come to Worst She treats me as a best fren. Which means theres no chance that i'm in her relationship ladder. Y? y? wat have i done wrong to deserve all this. I just want her back. I just want everything to go back to normal. She thinks i'm really happy now. Thinks that i would be able to move on with my life. Its very hard to move on when everyday i would just stone and remember the times we had. remember how we got together. Remember the little sms msg she sent to me few days before i asked her or couple with her. I'm really losing my confidence. She smsed me yesterday, i thought maybe we could have this chance. But from wat i read her blog. i dont think so. shes really letting go of it. Only thing bothers her is dat i'm not moving on. That i'm not happy. I'm still thinking...i'm still living in the past. Hoping somthing would happen. Something that could change everything. We could forget everything and start back from where we left off. I'm still thinking. Well shes really letting go dats for sure. Even the e-mail i sent to her. Doesnt seem to change anything. don't feel like blogging anymore. Don't feel like doing anything. I need to get wasted now. When is my next drinknig session? Get drunk get high. No worries. Lawlz. Well, watever she choose, i'll respect that. If shes happier better off without me, then i'll smile for her. Its just fate isnt it?. But sometimes i dont believe in fate. I rather say...fight for wat u want in ur life. Should i fight? or should i not fight? Well her decision her happiness..i'll smile for her